Today is festival, they say that if you die on this day you go to heaven coz today the doors of heaven are open. You killed our love. It has gone to heaven. May it continue in heaven. I’ll be happy about it.
I was confused when to come, then I decided to come early, give the box and go back before you return. Guess it was God's plan for me to see you. You looked so beautiful. I realise the mistakes in me.
I had a very long day. Thinking of a future without you is really scaring me. I wanna give another chance on your birthday. I’ll show you my face then. Anywhere I go, every music reminds me of you.
Will you wish me on my birthday?
I'm writing this on the 15th. I don't know what to do. I know I am wrong. Should we talk? Should I give you space? All I remember is that you calling me "Baby ma." I am not able to stop thinking. What do you want me to do?
I knew you would call today. It was nice talking to you, and I miss you so much now. I can’t send mail or do anything because you have to sleep. Tomorrow is Thursday, I wanna come to Sai Baba temple. I’ll come at 5 and wait till 7 pm. I don’t know what happens next.
Call Madu… I wanna talk to you. Coming to the temple to see you felt wrong. I spent the day hoping you would call me. I missed a lot today. Call Madu… I wanna hear you.
Couldn’t take it anymore. I decided to call. It felt good hearing your voice again. You shared so much and I just wanna say I love you.
Will you call me at night? If you’re not coming tonight, I’m guessing you’ll be waking me up in the morning. Let’s see. I feel like you are mad at me. A little. I wish I could chat with you.
After so long I woke up to your call. You tell alwa that when I’m not talking to you I go with someone else. Illa baby ma. Last year I was with Sumitha, I understand. But it’s not always like that. I know I have made mistakes but this isn’t what you think.
I had come to college because I had to collect LOR from the teachers. After that I went to PG. You were running in my mind the whole day. Thought I’ll call and ask if we could meet. You said yes. After the meet, all the hopes had come back.
Didn’t know that you would kiss me. I’m back in your arms. After soooo long I open the website I had created and added a photo. My baby is back. This is one of the best days of my life.
I had gone to temple today. I can feel that our love has started to grow. I also fear many things but, I prayed for “us”. Tomorrow I’m thinking we both will go to temple together.
Why does it have to end? What’s wrong with us? We were never like this. Today from the morning I have this weird feeling. My heart was beating hard. I wanted to cry out loud. I wanted you to be there. I guess I forced too much and I have had to let you go.
I don’t feel like showing my face to anyone. I haven’t eaten properly. Food isn’t going inside me. Mom has noticed that something’s wrong with me. I haven’t spoken to anyone yet.
I was home itself from morning. I skipped breakfast. I was alone at home. I was in bed the whole time. I clean-trimmed my beard. I miss you a lot. It’s like I have become so weak.
Today I have decided to talk to my family properly. But I’m getting frustrated very soon. I’m easily getting annoyed. Evening I went out to Jeevan’s house. After that, I could face my family also.
It’s Monday, the beginning of the week. I guess it’s a fresh start. I have started to think taking this break is a good thing. Later in the night you called, I never expected. I was in complete shock. I didn’t know what to say. I know you have exams started. All the best.
I’m scared to call you. I wanna talk to you so badly. I miss you so much. I just wanna talk to you on the phone for hours and make everything right. It’s 28th, one month for your birthday. I’m unable to sleep. And I’ve eaten so much food that I could eat for 2 days.
Today I had a dream, you had come to my PG to show me what you will be wearing for engagement and marriage. It was beautiful. Friends were asking what had happened between us. I didn’t know the answer.
I’m not able to sleep lo. I woke up randomly I couldn’t stop thinking of you. Life is hard. It’s been 1 week now. Life hasn’t improved at all. I hope you are doing fine. Miss you.
It’s the last day of January. Tomorrow starts the beginning of your birthday month. I’m excited to finish the book. I miss you a lot.
it’s 4:14 am now, i don’t know what to do? should i call you? , I really how to make my life better without you. It’s hard staying without talking to you.
Today I got to know you had gone to polar bear last week with your friends. I am starting to think that you are actually happy without me. you called me for otp today. It was only for the otp right? Nothing else. it’s 11:11 now, tell me what should i wish for?
writing the book made me realise so much about us. i wanna make us work again. i’m sorry and i miss you.
you wanted me to go through everything you are going through. i am going through. arjun called and asked to go to your college on saturday, have you called ritish as your patient?
the only thing that’s stopping me from calling is the book, because if i call you, the whole point of the book will be compromised but i really wanna call you
Arjun is repeatedly asking to go to your college as a patient, I don’t know if I’m ready to meet you or not. I do wanna see you, but I don’t know what’s going to happen. It’s been running in my head.
Why do we have to fight every time we speak? Are we really that bad? I don’t want this, I thought talking to you after so long would be all good, but we fought again. But I’m glad that you are doing well.
I wanna call and make things okay between us, but I know we will fight again. What do you want me to do? Give up on you? I am blocked everywhere.
Really didn’t expect that we would have a good conversation today. I hope you get well soon, and listening to your voice again made me remember my old lover. It wasn’t a bad day today.
It’s the 10th today, will you call me today? Telegram is the way I know. It worked, thank you for calling. It felt like I have won you back.
Things are going well after I and you have started to talk. I happy. I can sleep properly these days.
Should I ask if I can meet you? If we meet, the same story is going to repeat again. I really miss you.
I don’t feel like I have changed completely. There are still many bad traces of me being toxic. I want all of them to go away. You hang up so early.
It’s Valentine’s Day, I wish I could have celebrated this with you. I miss being with you. Why didn’t you order food for me? It would be very lovely. I guess I don’t deserve it.
I was confused about whether to text you or not tonight. Thankfully, you only called. Thanks for making my day.
Just a week of talking, not much, just a few minutes every day, and we are fighting again. Are we really that bad? I have started to see how down our relationship has gone. How can you believe that I called you money-minded? You really think that we are this bad?
I had thought yesterday was the last day we would talk. But I’m glad we spoke. I was a little bit drunk, but I was genuinely happy talking to you.
I miss you so much. I wanna see how you have changed. Your hair and your body shape. Will I ever see you?
Today, I watched “Paramathma.” Every single thing reminds me of you. “Thithi Vade” — you bit and kissed everything. She dies in that movie, and I felt feelings. I wanna be with you. I wanna spend the rest of my life with you.
You called in the evening and never called again. Why didnt you back? I was waiting for your call the whole time.
why aren’t you calling me? ask me something make a reason to call me. i had a bad dream last night. it’s been so long since we spoke. i wanna talk to you
i’m guessing you won’t be call me tonight also. i miss you i really do. i wanna hear you say about your day. how your day went. what all did you do? everything and anything
You wont call me anymore ah?. Im planning on going to Mumbai, alone. I wanna talk to you, call maduuuuuuuuuuu. it’s 24hrs.
OTP came, i was waiting for your calling. finally your call came. when you said “you don’t have to compare yourself to others, all i want you to be you.” it broke my heart. you are free now. i want you to be free. i don’t wanna come back in your life. be free. Today is the last day of me doing this everyday. I’ll try not to remember about our love. But the book will be the one to remember. let’s start fresh, If we ever get a chance to start.